today me, tomorrow you

=) wallace is back! haha. as usual. made us wait for like hours before he ever rememebered tt he's supposed to meet us in the first place. if not, i probably could have gone home to slp more. hmph. idiotic guy. forever one la. but yup, i missed his nonsense SO much, and i didn't realise. haha. he came back, with his traumatizing stories, haha made us laughed til we flipped. haha. =p lamer. im glad. cuz now, at leasst we got concensus from him abt wad we had been planning. at least not all rejected u see? ehhe. thank God. i was rather surprised tt he din say much, other than manpower allocation and feasibility. oh well, haha actually these 2 factors are MAJor enough to make us rack our brains today.

well. Today me, tomorrow you. i thot that was quite interesting. this sentence kept ringing in my mind. wallace said he saw it on the tombstone of a priest. others might find it scary, i thought that was rather meaningful and cool. everyone has to die, haha, but indeed, this line showed off much optimisim after deaths. yup. i would admire such people, rather than those who just throw away their lives, or cant be bothered with whatever thats going on in their lives. im saddened by the fact tt people are dying one after another. life's so unpredictable. for a moment, i was scared of dying. cuz there're so many things i have now, and i dun wish to lose them, or even to die before i complete wad i have to do. i admit, there was feear in me about dying. HAha. so gay right. but well, wallace brought back this phrase to me. somehow, it got rid of that fear somehow or rather. it made me realise, this can be talking abiout so many things. if u put it on our club shirt, it would mean, today we're the leaders, tomorrow, someone else will be. this is life! haha.

today me, tomorrow you. what else can that mean? many. but that really depends how one looks at it. i thot im rather inspirred by that. kinda motivated too. =)

haha. im stressed. and i know this will just get worse at the day passes. and wallace din allow me to take leave for arts fest. so sigh. im just going to miss the whole event. rather sad about it. nevertheless, i will be more matured and not let this daunt me yeah. cuz, i think it's the process that matters. i'll just make sure someone will be there to video camm EVERYTHING for me. even if that means hours. HAHA. so beware. hehe. i guess this is a way to teach me to slowly let go of the club? before i officially graduate from tp.

go go arts alive team. i know we can do it. i just kept telling myself this same sentence every morning when i open my eyes. that, nothing's gonna be too bad for me. and i pray. haha. that gives me new hope every morning. i hope this lasts. =)

club is overwhelming man. tonne sof probs, tonnes of things happening. till not even bendy feel like an octopus, i feel like one too. a lost and blur one too. only this part, i feel that im losing the confidence. haha. thats rather sad. but im not going to give up i guess.

got my checklist done up by my supervisor yesterday. grades were alright. but im not very happy with my own performance la. thouthg perhaps, i could have performed much better than that. oh, and iw ent out to do dispensing of medicine for the 2nd time. it was exciting. i like that feeling. of how patients are dependent on you, u konw, when u're sick, u will want to trust others who can help you to feel better. i want to be that person. im so sure of it. but am i capable of doing it? i hope i do. haha. we shall see. i'll work hard for my MP. i really will. thats a promise i mdae to myself. time to thikn for the future yeah.

hmmm. =p everythings still feeling weird. i know i can be quite bad at expressing my emotions at times. ayes. nowadays. if it was in the past, i guess i woul dhave just said wadever i thot it was right. but after bad experiences, realising tt perhaps showing our emotions might not be a good thing after all. more prone to getting hurt. HAha. im so gay. but i know, this is a bad thing abt me. cuz i make others feel sad and unappreciated at times. but all i want is, pls understand my heart, instead of looking at my actions sometimes. i know jeff does, and he will come to know. =)

i must be strong, cuz the club cant do with P and VP feeling flustered. they nv knew, when they're stressed, we feel more for them. it's not easy man. im feeling bit hard to juggle everyhting all at one go. but i'll work hard. =)

okie. gotta go. if not i'll be late for test! wish me luck. cuz i din study much. bb =)