bang!

wow. sip, mp, dpp module tests, arts alive gantt charts, logistics, booths, preparation.. managing the club, be informed of all projects, looking after dnd.. blah. wads next? ah. this is seriously BAD.

broke down last night. when wallace required a detailed gantt chart and timeline of everyday activity from now till january, as well as the layout blah blah. died. had a one hr half briefing with our sub comms and went thru timeline for the next 2 weeks. gosh. this is disgusting i have to say. suddenly i feel so lost, i realised that i cant do well in anymthing im doing right now cuz im not having a focus and priority. sighhh

thank god jeff's around. if not i think i wold have died. i guess. ha. anyway he still went over to my house at 1130 after we came back from sch to help me fix my stupid comp. but apaprently, it failed, cuz my comps too pathetic. haha. my mama kinda talked to him. tt was so cute. oh well, i was like half dead on the sofa already. so well well well. haha.

might stay over at shah's house tonight. i wonder if mama allows. but i dun think i've a choice. unless we chopc hop finish our stuff by tonight. haaa. im so gonna die. haha. dam sian. but girls, must press on okie! just a bit more to go. =)

everymorning i pray, i'll have a new hope, new confidence, and of cuz new joy. i want to be happier. this is simply not working out for me rightnow. ahhh.

okie goibng to work already. in-patient SUCKS. it's hell boring. i wonder how could one survive in there. i felt especially bad when theres nothing much to do there, yet i couldnt get naything done on my own. sigh. no comp no nothing. this sucks. pisses me off. ahhhhh. sip sucks big time. i wished i was ayear 2.

ahh. cya.