went to church today. woah. wad a feeling i got when i stepped in there. agh. i guess i really missed church, i missed the presence of God. during worship today, wa, i cried like mad. guess it's been the feeling i'd been getting for not attending services over like 2 months. over my years being there, it's the longest period of time that i'd ever missed church services all in a row. and yeah. haha. i felt so lame, like a kid who refused to go home. There had always been this story about a father forgiving the child who finally returned home. i guess tts exactly how i felt, more guilty than ever, yet i know, i had to go back there. because i know i'm never who i am, without my cell grp, meijin, and of cuz, having God in my life. for the past 3 months, i saw how my life was screwed. haha. i guess, that was because i wanted to rely on myself to settle everything. until i realised i couldnt, i broke down, and i felt like dying. but the fact is, i should have depended more on god than myself. ha.. where was the grace i once knew? haha. i duno. but i made a promise today. tt is im going to return to this place once again. =) i wont want to stray away again la. it had been scary being left alone outside.
after service, went to bedok to meet jeff. wa lao zhiwei and jx made us wait for so long. haha. but jeff brought me some bat ku teh that his mum cooked. damn nice to drink la~ haha. thou it was only a little. hehe. =) then after tt we went to bugis to eat duck rice for dinner. hehe. and wads next, went to arcade, wa lao, nowadays i suck at percussion master. i must go camp at arcade after work more often to practise. HMPH. haha. after tt we went to walk walk, and then at this malay basa malam. GOSH i bought my nice sharks fin soup!!! hehehe. so happy. and bought pizza thats like my palm size. so cute! haha. =) ate so much, until i was so fULL. hmmm unhealthy la!!! but ayes once in awhile. take it that we want to celebrate hari raya la. =)
haha. guys are trouble. Yep yep. trouble trouble. i wish im a guy. so i could be trouble rather than being troubled. wenguang's gonna meet me for lunch tmr. i gues si should since im' always turning him down whenever he asked me to go for dinner and all. haha. no way to escape la. though he's really nice.
i feel happy going to work tmr. cuz tue is public HOL. haha. =)
alright. i need to get off from this le. rest awhile then go and do my log book. oh man. i seriously have no idea wad to write. haha. lets hope tmr'll be a good day. and good luck to all those who're starting school tmr. how i wished im back in sch too. -( feeling so.. left out. AHHA. gdnight.
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