blessing in disguise

anyways. im damn slppy now, so i may have quite alot of typo erros since my eyes are only half opened right now.

havent been updating. cuz i had been dying, rushing thru my MP proposal. stayed up at mac with jeff on wed night. and i managed to do some work and quite abit of reading online. woah. my proj just gets more and more interesting each time i improve on it. =) but yeah, was damn tired. cuz ah... on thurs morning iwent straight to work. wa. and it was hell busy yesterday la, i nearly died over there.

last night, yup, rushed thru my proposal for awhile, then slept at 1230 and woke up at 430 to do work again. so i did work for like 3 hours and went to bathe and went to work again. everyday's cycle. wa lao. and today im DAMN seh. feel like my body's no longer mine.

the bloody pharmacist still pissed me off today. cuz of some idiot who mixed up and pushed my basket of prescription and medicines out together with his own in the same basket. and i ended up spending so much time loking for it, while stupid pharmacist CHARLENE just kept rattling away aasking where the hell was the basket and who on earth was the packer. i was like.. IRRITATED AND BOILING. until we finally found it, she screamed and shouted, 'can you all PLEASE take care of your own baskets with your DEAR LIVES!?' wa. i nearly wanted to KILL her. she was like acitng like a howling bitch. this time it really pissed me off. cuz my basket got stolen can?!!! she must have blacklisted me under all the error list man. damn sian. and today cuz i was tired, i made like duno how many mistakes. so much for working so hard to acheive no error work. forget it man. today's mistakes are enough to cover up for the whole week's one. =( stupid charlene. thank god im only left with one week in outpatient. but sadly, im going to miss all the aunties there... and all the new friends i've made throughout the 2 months. oh man. 2 months passed, can u believe it? i'd been on sip for so long without realising it. haha. time flies.

weekend again. tmr going back for some roleplay assessment. this is so annoying rtight. yeah kill me pls. hmmmm. =(

haha. well. some good news. but im not going to say it here. hehe. i guess im happy. =) and yeah. i kidna love the life im having now. though it's tiring and all cuz of work, and club. i've great friends. i have him. it feels so different all of a sudden. i just wish this dream nv ends yeah.. =)

alright. bendy just made me really mad. sigh. i wonder where all of his common sense went to. sometimes i jsut want to strangle him. really HARD. but ayes. but whenever it's outof work, we're like back to normal. oh man. haha. i dun undestand him. but who cares, he said he din understand my language too. communication breakdown man. serious. im getting so tired of such situations. i wonder when is this ever going to end. sigh. but i better get myself mentally prepared, cuz i believe there are more to come. haha. lame.

okie la. maybe cuz im tired nothing much to update. just that.. perhas im not feeling that good. cuz i feel that i let ppl down. ppl who cared and bothered. yet, i let them go. i feel like a loser now. perhaps, i really did change. feeling rather sad la. but ayes. wad can i do. cuz studies club changed my life. my character, confidence, independence, leadership blah blah were all trained by my beloved club. how could i not be grateful, how could i not want to stay on? hmmm. priorities in life. so difficult. i wish i nv grow up. =( sigh damn sad.

nayways. want to slp already. update agian. whee going out with jeff tmr after roleplay. its gonna be fun hehe.